A Heart As Black As Cole

Catharina Sutter was the love of my life and she doesn't even know it.
She doesn't remember me at all
She thinks I'm just a man who saved her from an awful situation.
She has no idea I'm the one who put her in that situation.

Eleven years ago, she was sold to a man named Cedric after scoring VIP tickets to one of my concerts.
That should have been the last night I ever saw her.
It was for so many other fans.
But I couldn't stay away this time. I missed sellout concerts to break into his house as he slept, just to see her, to touch her.
It put us both at risk.
It put the operation at risk, and my bosses, the devils that they were, would have done anything to shut me up. Anything to her.

Once, she was just a fan, and to the world, I was a rockstar.
An icon.
They didn't know the truth. Neither did she.
That I was a monster who just happened to have a good voice.
Preforming on stages was just a part of my job. The other part was far more sinister.

My shows led people like her into the darkest corners of the world.
To auctions that took away their rights...their lives.

Those who owned me called me The Decoy, because I was puppet on a string for them.
I hated it. I hated the things I had to do, but I had my ways to block it all out.
To make everything numb and forget the faces the world would never see again.
Except hers...the pretty fangirl in a silver dress and sneakers, with the biggest smile.

My bosses didn't approve, and despite my efforts at the auction, she could never be mine.
And I couldn't accept that.
I couldn't stay away and my sweet and tender touches became something more obsessive, and it made her hate me.
But now, after years of trying to find her, she doesn't remember any of that.
And I finally get to have that second chance I've always wanted.