{"product_id":"a-heart-as-black-as-cole","title":"A Heart As Black As Cole","description":"\u003cp\u003e\u003cspan\u003eCatharina Sutter was the love of my life and she doesn't even know it.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eShe doesn't remember me at all\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eShe thinks I'm just a man who saved her from an awful situation.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eShe has no idea I'm the one who put her in that situation.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eEleven years ago, she was sold to a man named Cedric after scoring VIP tickets to one of my concerts.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThat should have been the last night I ever saw her. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt was for so many other fans.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eBut I couldn't stay away this time. I missed sellout concerts to break into his house as he slept, just to see her, to touch her.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt put us both at risk.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eIt put the operation at risk, and my bosses, the devils that they were, would have done anything to shut me up. Anything to her.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eOnce, she was just a fan, and to the world, I was a rockstar.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eAn icon. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThey didn't know the truth. Neither did she.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThat I was a monster who just happened to have a good voice. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003ePreforming on stages was just a part of my job. The other part was far more sinister. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eMy shows led people like her into the darkest corners of the world.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eTo auctions that took away their rights...their lives.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eThose who owned me called me The Decoy, because I was puppet on a string for them.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI hated it. I hated the things I had to do, but I had my ways to block it all out. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eTo make everything numb and forget the faces the world would never see again.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eExcept hers...the pretty fangirl in a silver dress and sneakers, with the biggest smile. \u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eMy bosses didn't approve, and despite my efforts at the auction, she could never be mine.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eAnd I couldn't accept that.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eI couldn't stay away and my sweet and tender touches became something more obsessive, and it made her hate me.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eBut now, after years of trying to find her, she doesn't remember any of that.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003cbr\u003e\u003cspan\u003eAnd I finally get to have that second chance I've always wanted.\u003c\/span\u003e\u003c\/p\u003e","brand":"KMChaosBookReads Indie Book Shop","offers":[{"title":"Default Title","offer_id":67922797297853,"sku":null,"price":26.76,"currency_code":"USD","in_stock":false}],"thumbnail_url":"\/\/cdn.shopify.com\/s\/files\/1\/0752\/7461\/7021\/files\/FullSizeRender_624c3cc4-56a6-4bf3-9c4a-4855c8e0713b.jpg?v=1792773271","url":"https:\/\/kmchaosbookreads.com\/products\/a-heart-as-black-as-cole","provider":"KMChaosBookReads Indie Book Shop","version":"1.0","type":"link"}